My Dearest Big Sister

My dearest Big Sister, Hold out your hand I'll hold out mine too Though we're physically distant I'm here for you For all of my life you've been right by my side You are my original ride or die You told me you were going to stand by me How the hell can you do that if you leave? I know of demons and you are stronger than them Iniquitous beast Haunting dreams, fooling you to believe they're reality They aren't Stay and see I'm being selfish, yet, I'm not even remotely sorry If you leave you hurt me I'm not saying stay for me, But stay for me, him, us All of the above Please remember love Not the fleeting, inconsistent love of the man that ripped through your heart But of the one that you gave life's start Please remember love Not the unrealistic fantasies of love where no one ever takes fault But the love of a mother who can't take any more loss Please remember love Not the over comprised version of love where you forget who you are But the love of a sister that you've brought this far Just hold out your hand I'll hold out mine too I know I'm the youngest But I'm here for you Sincerely, Jhonu