MY DEPRESSION

MY DEPRESSION

Exactly!

what is my depression about?

that is the question be

is this the feeling faced?

would or could you call it that

of this thing inside my head,

of most mornings feeling flat,

with a score

of nothing more than a four,

or is it just!

a feeling of being miserable

and can’t explain why,

where a teary start is a part of the play,

in the start of a brand-new day.

Medication has had lots to answer for,

in order to keep me steady,

however, for me personally

with TMS being new kid on block;

it did help for a while;

then the dreaded tears

and of hopelessness appeared,

and kicked back in,

and dashed the TMS dream,

now wondering and considering

what is this all about?

there is an option for me to explore

to be back on the ECT machine,

and hopefully no consequences

of what had happened before.

ECT has assisted in the past

and helped to lift my spirits,

but this time part of the family,

has said “why?”

so therefore, I believe, 

I am in a no-win situation,

I do want this thing to go away

and feel better conceptually;

and not have flat of mornings be,

but in the end, I believe

the choice of what I do, is my own!

and what is good mentally for me,

and for my days,

but in order to achieve an ECT goal

I have to move my digs!

and I am an apprehensive soul.

So, I ask the question still,

exactly what is my depression about?

and there is no doubt

I don’t really like it as a friend.

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