My dilemma

Once I visited paradise 
Where there was no devil in disguise
The heavens showered confetti
I guess my fantasy world was ready
There were people as amiable as angels 
and there were loads of magical moments
alas the moments changed into memories
They could not be lived again 
The angels went back to heaven 
and I found myself back in hell
Perhaps surrounded with a maelstorm of emotions 
And maybe some unsolved equations
Was the feeling of the paradise so enchanting 
That I'll like to go to another again
Or the heartache of leaving it frightening 
That I'll never wanna visit it again