My double-edged sword

Love, such a crazy little thing

at first it makes your heart flutter

everything is suddenly rose tinted and bright

You become stronger

A forsefield surrounding your very soul, protecting you from the cruel outer world

Love, such a cruel little monster

it makes your heart ache

it fills your very essence with pain

You wonder what went wrong, what you did to deserve such pain

Unanswered questions and shitty answers pave the pathway to recovery

Love, the double-edged sword that I could never live without

its pain and pleasure combine to create a stronger me

A me that has learned to ignore the unanswered questions

to ignore the spiteful words shooting bullets from the mouth of the one I once loved

it has given me a shield of confidence and strength

So that even though I am covered with the scars of past affairs, I can still love others

and I can still be loved by others.