In My Dreams

Is it sad to say I’m afraid to fall asleep?

I’m afraid to close my eyes and find you there,

Waiting for me.

I’m afraid that your warm brown eyes will stare straight into my soul,

Reading my every thought.

I’m afraid that your warm hands will touch mine,

Embracing and comforting.

I’m afraid that when I see you, I will fall for you again

Making the same mistakes as before.

I’m afraid that if I sleep I won’t want to get up

Because you’re there,

In my dreams

Where I can say I love you

Where I can hug you and feel loved

Where I can kiss you and feel wanted

Where you love me back

In my dreams

Where every night you wait to take me somewhere new

To explore our future together

To spend our short life together

To laugh and cry together

In my dreams

But I have awoken

I have opened my eyes and see the white ceiling I hate

I turn over and you’re not there

My heart aches

My stomach jumps

I realize that I’m alone here without you

Another day in loneliness

Better go back to bed to see you again.

In my dreams