My epic poem
My name is Aylin
My dream is to be something I could never be
A fiend
Sike
I drool throughout the night
I catch my feelings going everywhere
Nowhere where I want to be
But it’s close to where I want to be
See always contradicting, Myself
Don’t even know what I want from, Myself
Contemplating what is life, itself
Ready for anything that is thrown at Me, Myself
I am honestly just a human being
More like, you, me, him, her, she, he
My thoughts on this world is
Try to stay positive
Because between you and me
There ain’t nothing good about this world
Devastation, hesitation no time for respiration
Is what I feel
Put yourself in my heels
I’m bound to take you on a obscure tour
in the Sf hills
We gotta deal with this change of weather
Don’t get me wrong i love this weather
No seasons involved, Who wouldn’t want to be raised in this weather?
If you want to get to know me better,
Don’t
So how’s the weather?
Sike
I fooled ya right?
This poem isn't about me
But more about some of the emotions that intervene with me
The key to life is
Enjoy yourself
Positive over negative
Don't care No care
Roll with it, Go with it
Life's repetitive.
By the way I’m Latina.
As early as 10,000 years ago
El Salvador was occupied by Paleo-Indians
Were you can still see the intriguing paintings
And it's nice complex culture
Hieroglyphic writing
Similar to the Aztecs
With heavy Mayan influences
Let me take you to the Spanish rule and independence
Where the violence and corruption never ends
Just getting started, were oppression never rests and has begun
Spanish conquistador arriving in 1524
Of courses claiming land, with agriculture soaring
Putting indigenous and African people to work
torture, not getting anything back, like if we had a choice
A revolt happens against Spain
Left with no land, but lots of poverty
A robbery that just makes no sense
Coffee takes the crown, if you did not know
Stock market crashes, coffee game goes down
Violence increasing by the day
Changing and trying
but is not trying harder
How hard is it to try to change this corruption?
Very with all the weapons but fuck it
Let's get to steppin' and fight for what's right
So we fight back military steps in
Do we stop?
No, but more lives are being taken as we respond
Ronald Reagon takes office, guess what happens
Millions funded into the military, prolonging the conflict
It's like they want this
What did we do to deserve this?
Or does everything really happen for a reason?
Getting sick of the worthless reasons
US gives billions to the war effort
Great.
They want us all done before we even know it
Against each other and you don't even know it
Or do we?
Scared to die, but it seems like our ambitions of fighting back
Is long gone
So we just sit back and watch.
Section three: Coming to America
With El Salvador being so deceiving
Who wants to live here?
Different ambiance, I guess
They say you come to America
They call it the American dream
Where you can find a job
Did my mom and her sisters get the message that it's much more than that?
7 sisters trying to come to America
A scary adventure with each life on the line
Making it seem like anyone who crosses the border
Is committing such a deadly crime
Leaving nothing but a fam behind
Threatened by the guerrillas to leave
Leaving a father
Behind
Taken away just like that
Because he was part of an organization
With no remorse behind those eyes
Is what it seems
Where is he now?
Long, gone
Was it the wrong time, day, place?
The world may never know
Smuggled by the coyotes
As they make their way to the land of free
Hiding under a truck
Spotted, oh man
What now?
Sent to jail, but bailed out of it
By a sister
Question.
Mom what was the best part of coming to America?
I don't even ask
I can already see it in my moms eyes
Disappointment.
You have no idea,
But I believe in you, mom
Anyone can get through it
You just have to go through it
Things can get better,
Our past can only hold so many experiences and memories
If you let it.
The world is a blind insult
were if you spoke out
Lights close, you out
can't seem to stick around
so long
Abominations
Assassinations
happening to the wrong leaders
Leaving no time for the best reconciliations within us, people
A whole, torn apart by a cruel system
Taking these victims who just want to spread the word of
love
Can we just live in peace?
Like around March, in the 1980's Romero a priest from El Salvador
Killed, for speaking out against poverty, social injustice
Assassinations and torture.
Coming from his own country
HIS OWN COUNTRY
How is it that someone who just wants to help, gets killed?
How is it that someone who is trying to improve the system, just goes downhill?
There is no type of free will
A villain in front of our own eyes
No justice happening, is what I see, just a huge..
Fiction in front of me.
Let the people, we so call immigrants BE.
Who are you to say we can't come live here in peace?
After all this is no ones land to claim
Yet the ignorance of you fools just don't get it
We are only human, bleed the same color
Just tryin’ to live a life that was just given
Sad part is, we are more dead than alive
When it comes to colliding forces and going sky high
So high, that their would not be anymore violent deaths
Shout out to all these great movements from the past,
Moment of silence for the real peace soldiers.
Man, why is it that when us people see the cops, we feel more
Paranoid than at ease
What up with all this unnecessary tension and grief
Let us live our lives in peace,
without the use of violence
Can't even touch you back without me being eyes shut,
Or prison no type of bail
done.
I hope that this can reach your soul and inspire all
To make peace and creating a effort for our next generations
It's time for new faces to come up and start making some changes
***
Here I am
Here we all are
History is mainey
It's like they just wrote these books
and said
Here read all about your history
My history and the history of all sorts does not affect me now
Does not affect my future
It may affect our inner selves
Having to read all about what our ancestors been through
It's messed up
Confusing
So I forget about it
I try to live for today
If I die tomorrow and was still living the past
Then what was I living for?
If I live for the future
than what does that make of me now?
Nah I want to live in the present
But not worry about the future for now
And in time I will be thinking for my future
But i won't let it affect me now
Goals?
I haven't set any goals
I have ideas
Many ideas
That we open our eyes
Fight for what's right
Go for what we all believe in
No holding back
Like if you knew you could not fear a thing
It would all be clear that
We'd all be invisible
This is all so true
Like I said before
Positive over negative
Find your true self
Forget about about the past
It's only holds you back
From a new chapter
And Life goes on
And only we can go on
There is no clock
We are in no rush
So take your time
Find your true self
But I'm no one to tell you this
It's what just in my mind and
eventually
I will
I have to let go of it.