My Fate

I know this doesn’t sound right but I had enough of this lonely fight When I’m at my highest point you know the happiest I can be The universe is out to get me It’s like it has something against me It gets me downed I get the feeling as if I’m being drowned And I can’t understand why You see I guess we just don’t see from eye to eye I guess it just wants me to say goodbye But I don’t want to die I just want all this unjust and unequal treatment To have a reason Because I’m tired of this frequent Maltreatment I may just be overthinking But lately it’s been feeling like I’m sinking I want to leave I want to escape I don’t like this place It has a feeling that makes me suffocate I might just be going insane But I want this feeling to erase I want to finally be okay I want to breathe I want that feeling to leave I want this blade of sadness to unsheathe I want to just breathe And believe me I can’t see What I did wrong I can only be so strong for so long I may be repeating myself But this treatment has excelled Far too much which is why I’m trying to rebel I want to let this all out Because this feeling of suffocation Is about to knock me out I’m getting dizzy Should I feel guilty That I want to reach my forbidden city The one with happiness and peace The one that gets me unleashed and released From this horrible thing So called fate That makes me hate Hate it so much because of my madness Is this... is this crazy? The fact that lately Ive been putting the blame On the universe, god, and even fate Or is this just karma But what did I do to receive this Feeling Should I be kneeling Should I start believing In god or Jesus Cause honestly right now I’m in pieces And I may not be bleeding But this feeling Of screaming Isn’t leaving I shouldn’t of have been concealing it I should’ve been revealing it But to who? Or what? So I write this to let it out To let my feelings burst outside than just my head and heart To let it be a part Of a new fresh start Cause sadly this is a part of me That I can’t neglect Even If it was incorrect And left me a lil depressed But guess what This is how I am and who I am And this effect that’s left me very perplexed I do not regret But the torment That’s left my thoughts suppressed Thinking that I was gonna be swept away from being “normal” Im oppressed by my own head Yes I’m upset and constantly held through discontent I want to forget this feeling, except that this request Is impossible, unstoppable, And the fact that I’m held responsible Is possible I just know that I need to overpower this feeling of suffocating By believing Believing that it’s meant to be So I should finally see That I shouldn’t be in agony But actually have pride for my insanity.... :)