My Fear

Bright lights pierce and gouge my eyes

I scratch and suffocate within myself to find something for distraction

I can scarcely keep the words from being thrown up onto the floor

Death is always unreachable for me, but never those I love

Grief washes over me like a white wave

Crashes and numbs my vision

Blackens my heart and my mind

Disintegrates my hands

So feed me or starve me

Kick me or kill me

What can I care

Happen what may

It is too late

No muscle will tense

No expression will pass across these features

These teeth will not be gritted

No scream will leak out

It matters not what becomes of me