My First

I romanticized the idea of love growing up

I wanted The Notebook kind of love

The love that never fails, even if years go by

I got my first girlfriend at 19

I dove so deep into her

Her laugh

Her smile

Everything about her, I wanted to know

The long distance hurt, but I didn't mind

2,000 miles apart and it's her birthday

I acted on love and flew up for the day

Spent 9 hours together then I was back on a plane

I dove so deep into her

Things started breaking

My heart

Our trust

Me

She broke me 

I dove so deep into her

When I needed to dive into myself

Love is patience and understanding

Love is relentless and empowering

Love shouldn't make someone lose themselves 

Love should stand tall

Black, white, gay, straight

Love is something for us all

I've learned what love really is

Now, I am diving into myself