My first born!

Up again drinking coffee at 3am , Hearing suffering sounds can't believe they are coming from him. My first born seeing him like this has my heart torn Sleeping in the streets to the sounds of withdrawal and car horns. Thinking about where he will stand to ask for money , will they believe him? Will they think he is poor? Nothing but worry staring at the floor , wondering if i will get that knock at the door . Turning him away crushes me to my core cause I know what he is capable of I know he is so much more. I can't believe this is what I got clean for I pray my baby gets sober before he is knocking on heavens door cause God knows I can't live without my first born!!!