My God

Age 15 My god rests in my peers The need to be liked and known controlling every action I do that is outwardly shown 16 My god rests in my fingers frequent trips down my throat a gag followed by release that way my waist I can gloat 17 My god rests in a drawer sharp and shiny as can be from small pricks to a straight slash red is all I see 20 My god rests in a bottle burning and sour to drink dulling my senses and pain I crave more so I can’t think 22 My god rests in a deck shuffled, dealt, and turned throwing money away might as well have it burned 25 My god rests in a club loud music and girls galore their clothes for my money I want less, they want more 28 My god rests in my bed a new purchased joy they wait along the streets so their services I can employ 30 My god rests in a barrel chilly against my head many regrets but no goodbyes then in an instant I lay dead 0 My God rests in a judges chair knowing I have done wrong no way to pass the test in heaven I do not belong 0 My God rests up there engulfed with sorrow for me No longer able to choose a god for every need