my heart

I told myself
over and over again
that this would make it okay
that I was over it
that this is all I wanted

I was wrong
over and over again
we make the same mistakes
it really isn't okay
I can't get over it
I want more

no

I want to go back
to forget the future
and live in the past
cling to you and
blind myself to the fact
that you don't need me
the way I need you

maybe you never did
and I've been blind all the time
and now it's all coming back
to hit me where it hurts
but I'll lean into the punch
because I don't want to let go