My Heart Cries Why!

MY HEART CRIES WHY? My heart is heavy with sadness and love It used to be light as the feather of a dove But recently things have changed And I feel really strange. I never really have any friends And that makes most things have miserable ends I hope and pray that I will understand If not now then someday. I want to be the person who everyone loves. I want to be gentle as the morning doves. So far those to whom I most long to be close Act like I'm some kind of medicine overdose. My heart cries WHY?! It makes no sense to me. I know I am more than ordinary I am weird and funny Never quiet and never shy, But still my heart cries why?! Friends are those who care the most But that would mean my mom is the host Of the Michaela fan club If there is such a thing She is the only member with a loyalty ring She loves and loves with no holding back Why is everyone else so off track You are my friends at least that's how I see it. But you don't take part I am not an idiot If you wanted to be As close to me As I want to be to you Then you would have already shown me the truth I love you and want to be there for you like you have been for me However you are handicapping me. I cannot do things that encourage you without your approval Then why am I trying to make it possible? Don't you see how much you mean to me? Don't you know without you where I'd be? In a world of immorality and sin I know I can count on you to help me win. However at this point I doubt What is this distance between all about? You say you care and will never leave Yet I feel there is something you're hiding up in your sleeve How can I know for sure that you mean what you say Cause it seems everyday you drift further away. I know that I am annoying and talk more than a Parrot But seeing your expression now makes it apparent How you really feel is not what you say You would rather not give me the time of day. I know this sounds stupid and definitely sad But I really do feel this bad. My God above please hear the cry My heart is releasing WHY?! Michaela Hartman (04.25.13) Freshman Year @ York College