My hospital bed

There I wake on the floor around the paramedics a tube in my nose going to my throat so I can breathe again, tears rushing down my face from all the pain and fear the lives inside of me because I can not remember what happened to me. I cant move my head this neck brace makes it harder to breathe they say my name over and over again but I can barely hear them I'm so tired I just want to close my eyes and sleep they poke me with a needle to get blood but I can not feel it I'm to use to it I have scars from the needle my neck and back hurts they rush me to the hospital I'm barely breathing I just want to sleep I'm so tired as I lay there in my hospital bed with doctors and nurses surrounding me a bright light shines in my eyes as they say my name but all I can hear is mumbling I fall to sleep and in the morning as I wake they tell me what happened but I still can not remember I'm in so much pain but the pills they give me seem to not work with me so i just lay here in my hospital bed hurting and scared living with seizures face death every time getting bullied from them in and out of hospitals my whole life being tested on like a Guinea pig knowing I might die knowing something is wrong with me but they can not help me so I lay there in my hospital bed just waiting until it happens again and again and again until my life finally expires.