My Life

My life you see it, but i live it.

My life it ain't worth spit.

My life I can't do nothing with it.

I cant help I dont fit.

With the people around me.

"You can trust me, D.

You will see.

I'm not the enemy!"

I can't 'cause the enemy is me.

I want to trust you,

I really do,

but I dont know how to...

Why??? You say.

That's a good question I'll answer another day.

Why wait???

If I hold out long enough it will fade.

I don't  want to reveal my truth

'cause it sounds ruth-

less and depressing.

I don't want to sound needy

or make you obligated to help me.

I know I have a problem or need therapy,

but what else can I do when I fear you will use it against me?

My life you know a piece of it.

My life the mess you don't need to deal with.