My Life

I am scared to look at life beyond now It is time to cut my flesh so it can take a vow To never let a piece of metal Defy becoming the devil For I have let becoming a lady Stop me from tending to my heart that’s achy And have placed my soul in the hands Of someone who stands beside me and chants I hate you but love you tenderly That’s something that stays in my memory Fighting to live the ultimate life Comes down to burglarizing The one person I can look in the face and apologize to I am on fire while being displayed on a barbeque I am nobody as of right now But in church I am Gods’ child somehow I do not deserve all the pity For I cannot help that I was not born pretty And that knife that’s embedded in my throat Was put there for me to gloat The one place I need to be is off of earth I am going to put my existence in reverse My last result is to die It’s time to go to heaven to testify Why my bed should be placed in the sky I am uncertain what it means To have dreams I am stuck in this body And I am really sorry I am tired of crying I would rather go hiding That cross is where I belong I am scared to look at life beyond now But this time I am ready to vow To death with that gun placed on my head But do not worry my story can be read.