My Life

You’ve recently joined the pummel party

You all have been with me since I was little

Only recently you’ve come out to play

Playing with my thoughts and emotions

Pop! There goes my life in a bubble

Dear Anxiety,

You rattle me in my sleep

You make me fear the ones I love

You hold me against my will

My body alive while my mind is mysteriously missing

To a place that is free of you

You make all of my friends disappear

Disappear to a place of security 

Dear Depression,

You are the monster underneath my bed

You make me hate everything about myself

My body, my grades, my relationships, but most of all my existence

You are the constant headache, I have every waking moment

Another beat aching to attack

Then you tore open my life like a snack,

You were ready to devour

Crunch crunch

Spilled everywhere,

Dear Bipolar,

Have you met my friends depression and anxiety?

They always will be by your side

You’ve jumbled up my brain and confused the little people inside

You don’t understand the pain that you cause

The pain of heartbreak

The pain in my chest that makes me unable to breathe

The pain that is unforeseen 

Dear brain,

Have you forgotten how to keep balance?

Have you given up on helping me?

These new friends you’ve brought me are killing me inside

After all we’ve been through 

After all our late night talks

How could you do this to me?

How could you let them in?

Dear everyone,

Shh! I’m speaking now

I’m speaking for everyone with mental health issues

When I say stop!

Stop controlling our lives

Stop saying that we are worthless

Stop bringing us to the point of self harm

Stop killing us

All we want is for you to be quiet

All we want is for you to go away

So when I say be quiet

Be quiet