My life line

Did you ever understand how i felt. Max you meant the world to me , you were my world you always were. Then how should i begin. To describe the the love i felt for you. Time and time again i'm there . Looking at you as you don't look back. You used to be kind, sweet, loving. Back then you used to care but that was so long ago. Beauty lies beneath the skin you told me. I always looked away, but now you changed. Now no one understands the pain. Now that thought is one of many demons in the 13 levels of hell. Time and time again i’m there But now they are only urges of my life. That one move to pull the trigger . The way my name used to fit in your mouth . Ashley i love you, did you mean it when you said it. Now i’m alone and you’re not here with me . You left me , but before you told me you would never leave my side. I remember when you said you cared. But why did you have to go . The first place you took me to. Do you remember the sun shining in my face. You laying in the fluff of the grass. Now they are only memories. Now i am left with a broken heart. And swollen eyes. Dry eyes and tired days lay ahead of me. Now i see you in everything i look at. But do you notice me, the pain i have because of you. The love i still have for you. I’m tired of faking. I’m tired of missing you when you right there in front of me. I want you with me, but you’ve changed. It was unexpected, it was in a flash. Your once soft exterior now cover with bricks and stone cold looks. Thoughts because of reality, they show me. What i need to do is to get you back that is all i want for myself is to be happy