My Mother, the wish

Dear Mother, I wish I can tell you, how deeply I'am wounded without you. Years keep passing by but the longing doesnt. All of your clothes doesnt smell like you anymore. Just me and our memories sometimes talk in lonely nights and I cried. I wish I can sleep on that lap of yours, I wish I can hold that warm hands again. Mother, all of my body is part of you but my eyes can't see you. Yes I need you. I need you when daddy yell at me. I need you when I'am happy. I need when I'am sad. I need you since i was born on that cold november. Mother its hard when you left on that december. Days, weeks, months and years seems so hard for me and my siblings. Because this house doesnt feel like home to me anymore. I wish when I cameback home, you, like always waiting for me with that strong smile. I wish I can make you more proud. I wish I can wish for you and your return. I wish because this is all I can do for you now.