My Name

My Name

By Alicia Caruso

            My name is who I am. I, one unique individual, represents this name, but the story is one of an unspoken tale. Pain and sadness hover this individual, but the brave and courage inside this beautiful soul is priceless. For a younger sister, she is a role model, therefore she does not shed a single tear. The fear of having the younger sister to think she is weak haunts her.

            Nightmares every night, dreams during the day and hopes all the time. No one sees or knows what she is hiding because she does not say a single word. She does not want pity or understanding; she wants the ability to change and to forget.

            Grew up adopting others beliefs, for she was too young to think for herself. Now as a young woman, she is judged and damned for her beliefs and thoughts. Born as a catholic, but fades into an atheist. If God were real, why can't she see him? Why hasn't he shown his powers to the world?

            Being put down by the one who is suppose to love her the most. She finds a new one to love, but gets grief. She turns to school, but the drama makes it worse. Art becomes her best friend and is replaced by writing. She exposes her talent and receives the support she has been secretly waiting for.

            As a junior in high school with a perfect record, she still struggles to prove she is worthy. Craving acceptance and less judgement, she is a young woman trying to find herself in this world. Her journey will end once she accepts the fate of her future.

           Today, she stands before you as a high school graduate. Independence and maturity forming in her college years. She refuses to let the hell of her past to hold her back. Her time is now, as she blooms into a rose. One day she will be standing tall as a mountain, strong, beautiful and wise.