My Need

A girl…double major in Marketing and Public Relations with a minor in Spanish 18 years old doing things for herself Getting all the grades but never getting repaid. What is a need? When a mother tells her daughter, “Don’t stay in this city. You’ll be hurt. People steal. There is hate. You’ll be killed.” When a father says “Get all the grades and be your best… because people like you get the jobs, the two kids, the white fence -where you are so rich that it ain’t picket!...but its brick.” But where’s my fence…? Where is my good reputation after all my tribulation leading to my ultimate humiliation. Always getting the grades but always being played. Because a girl can’t get any money. Scholarships didn’t give me any money -I guess they thought it was funny.- That I had to take out loans and STILL pay thousands on the side… …cause of the need… that a family who makes enough not to receive aid, yet isn’t rich has. It would be a shame for me to leave give up all that I breathe all of my dreams my education determination salvation BECAUSE ALL THAT I NEED… Is a scholarship. A need is not the same as a want. Some people want a scholarship. Well, I’ve got news: I NEED a scholarship. The love of money is the root of all evil? The lack of it is the pretense to destruction. My need is more grand than all others in the land of the undeserving un-nerving overcritical yet intentional people that tell me “Jaylon, you don’t have what it takes” FOR YOUR INFORMATION I KNOW ENGLISH AND MATH AND 2 + 2 = 4 AND 4 + ME = CHA-CHING AND CHA + CHING = BLING BLING… but bling bling – college equals a backpack and a textbook, and THAT’S my need. My educational destination because of my situation of “I WANNA BE ALL OF WHO I CAN BE.”… This 3.93 in highschool won’t be unused and this 3.83 in college won’t be abused. So don’t accuse me when you see and I say that I need mon-ay.