My Nickname is Liv(e)

Dear Life, 

A 4 letter word, but life you are so much more than that.

It's kind of funny actually how you have a way of humbling people.

I myself needed that at times... 

Life I know we haven't always gotten along.

In fact, I tend to rub you the wrong way. 

I just couldn't except that you give others more and they don't appreciate you. 

I've been waiting by the phone, waiting for emails, and still nothing. 

For a while I had lost my will to live. 

I remember doors being shut in my face. 

I learned how to be kind, humble and strong from you life. 

I learned to forgive. 

If I didn't move on I wouldn't be living you. 

For a while it will be hard to forget the pain you have brought me. 

Though I did realize why I was so alone, why I was so sad... 

Life, the other day you had a stranger, a lady, come up to me at random... 

"I know what you are!"

"Well could you tell me, because I have no idea? I laughed. 

She said nothing more.

The lady rummaged through some papers and hands me a note. 

I waited and held in in my coat pocket. 

"Look up Indigo Children" 

That's what her note said.

So I did.

So life I have to ask... Is this true? 

Is this the reason I couldn't pay attention in school.

I this why you put people in my way to hurt me?

Those were all a lessons weren't they. 

Well I'm smarter now.

You got what you wanted Life. 

I had to experience pain so when you finally release me into a Euphoric state of pure bliss.

I can appreciate it more than anybody in the room with us. 

I have passed all your tests.

I listen!

I even packed my bags up and left my home, my family, my friends, my adorable puppies, and my OLD me... 

I came to where I am now with a couple pairs of clothes, no money, and completely alone. 

I started to chase you life.

You just happened to be in another place 22 hours away from my home.

I heard you tell me to start living!

What's funnier is hearing my childhood name all the time. 

"Just Liv(e)" Well Liv is my name. Yet, I had been doing anything but Liv(e). 

I hit every obstacle in the road.

I had unneccessary cruelness come to me because of you. 

I struggled in school, because while other girl's gossip in math class; I'm trying to figure you out.

What is the meaning of life?

To Liv(e)?

People think I'm empty headed because my head is connecting everyone to exact moments in time. 

That makes me forget where I am and what I'm doing. 

You consume my thoughts more than anything else I do.

Why do I only get one life?

One chance, and one alone to build empires and leave a legacy. 

I had to go on as if you'll never leave, but you will escape my breath one day. 

I will meet somebody new after you. 

Till then i walk the streets and ask:

Why was that person there?

Why were they meant to be doing that right now in this exact moment?

What in their life has brought them to this moment?

What is the cause and effect of their actions?

How can that trickle into the invisible web of human interaction?

You see I believe you are somehow based on Fate.

This type of fate is a reaction to your own actions and your own mind. 

Due to those reasons, I figured out that you put me in places I don't want to be because whether i like it or not, I was meant to be there in that moment dealing with whatever you put in my path.

You are sick! You are Mad! You are unfair! You are so.. wise... All knowing! 

You have reason for every desaster.

It just takes time to unveil your methods and lessons. 

That's why you gave me sight.. So I could understand and talk to you. 

You are the only thing keeping me here. 

So I have no choice but to hear you. 

I always wondered why "The Secret" has always popped up everywhere.

I used to hate when the audio was on repeat.

I would always hear about the universe. 

So when I started to figure you out, I realized that you are full of surprises. 

Then i started listening.. I couldn't stop and I became addicted to life.

You called for me here to start my new life.

At 18 years old, you told me to trust you and take a leap of faith. 

That was the best Advice you ever gave me.

I'm going to make it, but you already know that from our previous discussions. 

You and I can be together in the pursuit of happiness. 

"Just Liv(e) Life"

Thank you life, without you i wouldn't be who I am right now... In this exact moment...

Sincerely,

Liv(e)