My Only Friend

My only friend,

loud amid the day and continues through the night 

my biggest advocate, my most lethal enemy 

my poisonous lover 

My only friend, 

is no where to be found

yet appears when least expected and 

torments me as I struggle to find truth 

My only friend,

exists within me yet screams so loudly as if outside of me

as it stabs me and comforts me simultaneously 

perhaps its only a figment of my imagination 

My only friend, 

is the one thing I can’t live without 

My only friend, 

is my mind that roams the emptiest of rooms

the darkest of hearts 

and the deepest of eyes 

as it searches for answers never explained 

and phenomenons never explored 

My only friend, 

is a thought that enters by day and leaves by night