my perfect poison

3:34pm

(01/08/2020)

i hate that ive been missing you so often.

it’s like a feeling i can’t shake,

you remind of so many things that i want to forget,

yet so many things that i’d love to remember.

and that’s why i still don’t like sharing myself with others.

you’re the only who read them the way you did
and interepreted them and gave me hope.

...made me feel inspired.

but in someway i’ve moved on

to someone new (i think)

but i didn’t want to move on.

i wanna be healed from you.

i want to be freed from you.

too many things attached to you that i forget how to think with my emotions.

i just want you back for a moment.

you’re that one toxic person i always want with me.