My plea

People don't understand They think your sad even when your happy They don't understand Just because it doesn't faze you Doesn't mean the same for me People always changing can't keep up It's a whirlwind always struggling Which only feeds the flame that Starts small but continues to flare The thoughts trickle in one by one Slowly slipping away from reality that's when the pain occurs Make it stop The pain inside Make it stop This is my plea for help The pain is real it's in my head And in my bones From the top to the bottom The pain is real Make it stop It's to real I want it to end All of it Can't see no further It's the only option People say hey how you doing You just smile and wave But deep inside you just want it to end You keep trying saying there's another day But each day gets harder Harder to see Harder to hear Harder to live You just want it to end Then maybe the pain will go away Help me this is my plea For I can't see no further The pain is deep inside But very real Tired of rejection Tired of being a failure For that's all I see No hope no light no need I just want it to end People say hey how are you You smile and wave But deep inside you just want it to end Cause the pain is real It's deeply tucked away Away from public's view People see the smile but Deep inside your dying The pain is real it's in my head Spreading to my bones For I can't see much further I just want it to end The only love I feel is from the dagger in my wound The world's getting smaller The walls closing in It's only me Against the world For there's people all around Yet no one sees me The smile and good cheer Is all they see But deep inside The pain is real It's in my head spreading to my bones Lungs failing Cant breath This is my plea for help For I can't see much further Pretty soon the walls will collapse The light will fade The pain will cease For that's the end Of you and me For I can't see much further This is my plea So help me see See past the now For now I can't see much further Lift the walls Shine a light To help me see See past the pain that cuts so deep Bring your aid to save my bleeding heart For the pain is real So help me heal Help me feel The light again Take the pain from my bones In hopes the pain Will shortly fade away Away from the broken heart And a mind that's gone So help me please For this is my plea To free a mind Of the pain I feel So lift the walls Shine a light To fix a broken mind So that I might be able To break the chains of a broken mind Set me free That I might be able to breath Take the knife that cut so deep Take it away far away That I may feel The pain is deep but Time will tell If the mind will heal Heal back to what it use to be Strong bright and true But for now Let it be for I can't see much further I want the light I want the peace Of a solid mind People can't see the pain I feel for I hide it away Far away The pain is fighting back Coming to the surface Trying to hide it only makes it worse For the pain is deep but surely real The smiles and good cheer Is all they see But the pain is surely real For they say it's in my head Im trying but all they see is fear But that fear is holding back the pain I may be tough But deep inside I'm dying So help me please For this is my plea Shaking waiting for the time to come When the pain gets too real To hard When you can't take another breath Just trying to carry on But soon the time will come when the pain Will end And that day will be the end so Thank you for trying but the pain was just too real For I couldn't see much further For I thought it was me against the world But I was wrong Trapped in my head all I could see was me But that was wrong There was you always you and me The achievements I had Showed I wasn't a reject The service I've done showed I wasn't a loser For now I can see much further than just me But surely it never gets easier To breath to take another step But it's what you have to do I thought I was all alone with the world against just me but oh how wrong I was Though the journey is long You can barely see But then the voices reappear You yell scratch and scream For all you want is to see Tired of all the pain You just want it to end But instead of ending you finally see That in the end it just wasn't meant to be So end the pain Share a smile Let go of the dagger that you held so dearly For you can finally see See that you were meant to be Now take this plea Take my pain That I held so dearly And set it free To save another That they may see See that with time the pain Will subside That person that says hey how you doing Might actually care Give it a chance For I care to see much further now For the chains are breaking Breaking the shackles held on me For I thought my time was up But who am I to decide I thought they didn't care Until I shared my plea I thought ending the pain would help me For at the time that's all I could see But the pain wouldn't end at me If I ended it all For I couldn't see the love they had for me So remember my plea For I wish I knew That people actually cared Cared for me For then I would have Helped the pain Secede from out my bones For at first I thought the pain Would never end But with time It will end Instead of me Thank you For listening to my plea