I am so pain....in my heart...and mind...my body...

There is an incredible weight...on my shoulders...

It just seems to get bigger by the day...

each time I wake up...

Each time I go to sleep...

There is nothing but guilt...

and more pain....

I sleep with burden...

I wake up with burden...

It is invisible...

But I can really sense the pain...

and agony and conformity....

it shoulders on my weight....

I can't take it prolong....

I can't take it...

otherwise...I might kill myself...in pain and agony...

It is too unbearable...

Far greater than any eye can see...

But I carry it with me...each and every single day...

Nothing but pain...In my eyes...

In my heart...and chest...my mind....

pain...and only pain...

Will it go away....I think not...I think it will get larger by the day...

I am feeling unnerved...stressed by it...

I can't take it any longer...

I really might kill myself...

with this weight...

this weight is far greater than myself...

Probably three times...four...if not five...

time greater than my normal weight...

But I live on..like this day to day....in pain...agony...in turmoil...

Hoping that one day when I wake up...will regain my self-esteem..

and truly be happy once more...

and be myself..my former child-like self...

and play along...and actually laugh for once...

in cherishable moments...and not be in agony....

truly...I hope that one day that arrives....

And I can be forever myself again....

Forever and always...

Because Life is Short...

Too short to be people we are not essentially or really...

Life really is too short for all this...

I hope I can batttle my inner demons...

and regain myself...

I really do hope...

This Life is A New Arrival...

One for me...

Because I know I deserve atleast this bit of happiness...

this much of happiness....

May God Almight be with me...

-Ramanpreet Kaur