My Sorrow

How great is my sorrow How deep is my pain This burden that follows me; engulfed by the shame… To have fallen from your eyes, as such a child like me would, is the greatest affliction- the greatest punishment to bear. Overwhelmed by my choices… alone…without you…incomplete. My happiness is shut out from my very grasp And I am left with nothing but remorse and sadness. What I would give to let it all out, To release the pain and start all over… What I would give to have the strength to overcome… But alas, I cannot. I am a slave to my own desires- A prisoner in my own conscience. Unable to escape and be free. How long must I go on this way? How long must I endure the suffering of knowing the disappointment I have brought before your eyes? How long will I be weak and not have the courage to rise and be changed by you. What am I waiting for? Oh savior who art in heaven, how I long to rejoice in your glory. How I long to be free in your love. How I long for the joy and happiness only you can give. Yet I am repressed by my sin. I am shunned from your light. I am chained to the walls of misery and endless woe brought upon by my own actions. Only you hold the truth. Only you wield the key to my escape…yet I am so reluctant to approach you… Why? With every action comes a necessary consequence, and do I fear it? Yes, I cannot lie. Yet I know it is the only way to find favor in your eyes again. To once more feel your love and cling to the joy I so longingly seek. Therefore, I know what must be done. I know the power of your sacrifice, of your atonement for me: for all my sins. And I am truly grateful…so in return I too must sacrifice. and pay you back for what I’ve done to show the gratitude I feel. To show that I am ready and willing to obey, to accept your love and be freed. Please accept me.