My struggle

Fighting 

Struggling 

Battling through a massive war my entire life  

Hoping to have found peace long before today 

I stand here exhausted  

Expended 

Used up beyond what I can refill 

When will freedom be mine 

I'm suffocating 

Will I ever get the chance to stop struggling 

To breathe 

To let down the walls that I have built up so high 

So thick I'm not even sure who I am with out them 

I'm expected to be strong  

I'm know for being a fighter 

So who am I when I can fight back no longer 

Am I really who they think I am 

How can anyone know who I am when I haven't been given the choice of life 

When every decision I make is not really mine 

But a thought planted in my mind 

What I can do 

When I can do it 

 How I am to pursue it 

Does Anybody care about what thoughts are truly mine 

About where I see myself in time 

I'm trying to find MY voice 

MY thoughts 

MY beliefs  

But my reward is heart break and strife 

For being such a fighter 

Sometimes I feel hopeless