My Testimony

                                                                       MY TESTIMONY   

MULTIPLE BLESSINGS ARE GIVEN IN A LIFETIME  

ONE OF MY BIGGEST BLESSINGS WERE LIPS AND A NOSE JUST LIKE MINE  

BEING COMPLETELY PREPARED FOR MOTHERHOOD WAS IMPOSSIBLE  

BUT LOVING THIS LITTLE BABY WHOLE HEARTEDLY WAS IMMEDIATE  

1 PETER 3:4; YOU SHOULD BE KNOWN FOR THE BEAUTY THAT COME FROM WITHIN, THE UNFADING BEAUTY OF A GENTLE AND QUIET SPIRIT, WHICH IS SO PRECIOUS TO GOD  

CARING FOR A CHILD IS NEEDED DAY TO NIGHT; THROUGH THE NIGHT, UNTIL DAY AGAIN  

BUT WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN SOMETHING IS BINDING YOUR SPIRIT AND MIND?  

DESPITE HOW DEEP IN A HOLE IM IN OR HOW DARK IT FEELS THAT DAY  

NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES MY BEAUTIFUL BABY SMILES; I JUST CAN’T FULLY EMBRACE THE MOMENTS BECAUSE THERE’S SOMETHING IN MY WAY  

DAY AFTER DAY I HAD REGRET ON MY MIND AND SADNESS IN MY HEART AND MANY TIMES I WOULD JUST CRY  

OFCOURSE LIFE PROCEEDED TO CONTINUE WHILE I WAS STUCK IN THIS DISTRESS, IN THOSE MOMENTS IT FELT LIKE MY MAIN ENEMY WAS TIME  

PROVERBS 12:25; ANXIETY IN A MAN’S HEART WEIGHS HIM DOWN BUT A GOOD WORD MAKES HIM GLAD  

MANY MOMENTS CAME ABOUT BRINGING JOY AND SMILES  

BUT EVERY NOW AND THEN THAT CLOUD FOUND ME AND STAYED A WHILE  

RESTLESS NIGHTS AND FATIGUE BECAME VERY FAMILIAR  

OVERWHELMING EMOTIONS FILLED MY MIND UNTIL MY ONLY RELIEF WERE TEARS  

EVEN THEN THEY’D FIND IT’S WAY BACK  

MONTHS WENT BY AND MY DAYS SEEMED TO DEVELOP A NEW PATTERN  

LITTLE DID I KNOW, THE PRAYERS MADE ON MY BEHALF WERE SLOWLY BRINGING “ME’’ BACK   

LUKE 21:28; AND WHEN THESE THINGS BEGIN TO COME TO PASS, THEN LOOK UP AND LIFT YOUR HEADS; FOR YOUR REDEMPTION DRAWETH NEAR   

MANY DAYS I WOULD WAKE UP EXPECTING DEFEAT  

BUT ONE NIGHT CAME TO REMIND ME THAT DESPITE WHAT’S GOING ON, GOD IS IN CONTROL  

I GREW UP HEARING A PHRASE “LATE IN THE MIDNIGHT HOUR...GOD’S GONNA TURN IT AROUND”  

ONCE AGAIN GOD DID JUST THAT FOR “ME”  

AS I LAYED DOWN IN MY BED ASLEEP AND UNAWARE  

GOD REACHED DOWN TO RESTORE ME; HE PULLED OUT THE SADNESS FROM MY HEART AND REPLACED IT WITH JOY  

HE TOUCHED MY MIND AND SWEPT AWAY THOUGHTS I RESENT WERE EVEN THERE  

PSALMS 40: 1-3; I WAITED PATIENTLY FOR THE LORD AND HE INCLINED UNTO ME AND HEARD MY CRY. HE BROUGHT ME UP ALSO OUT OF AN HORRIBLE PIT, OUT OF THE MIRY CLAY AND SET MY FEET UPON A ROCK AND ESTABLISHED MY GOINGS. AND HE HATH PUT A NEW SONG IN MY MOUTH EVEN PRAISE UNTO OUR GOD; MANY SHALL SEE IT AND FEAR AND SHALL TRUST IN THE LORD  

COME THAT MORNING, I WOKE UP WITH A RESTORED HEART AND MIND  

MY SPIRIT RELIEVED OF A BURDEN CONFLICTING OUR LIVES  

ISAIAH 43:19 BEHOLD, I AM DOING A NEW THING; NOW IT SPRINGS FORTH, DO YOU NOT PERCIEVE IT? I WILL MAKE A WAY IN THE WILDERNESS AND RIVERS IN THE DESERT  

MY WORLD WAS BRIGHTENED AND I HAD A NEW SONG TO SING  

BETTER DAYS TO COME AND NEW MOMENTS TO TREASURE  

UNFORTUNATELY, POST PARTUM DEPRESSION HAS BEEN A PART OF MOTHERHOOD’S STORY  

BUT BY THE GRACE OF GOD, I AM JACHALA OSLER-BROWN, HAPPILY A WIFE AND MOTHER AND  

              “THIS IS MY TESTIMONY”