My THOUGHTS

Wtf man 

Everybody actors 

Who tf is real 

I swear I never seen so many snakes

I swear I never seen so many wanna be 

Everybody the same 

Everybody a lame 

You be thinking they yours man 

& they the one that got the gun 

At your bacc

Shit been weird 

Even the new people I met scared me 

Cus it like y you trying so hard 

I support yah 

But you don’t gotta be more for me 

Who am I for you to put on a show 

Y’all be playing with people feelings 

That be in their healing stages 

Then wanna play victim

Act as if you not the blame 

Always looking at me as if I’m Shame 

As if I was to blame 

It’s funny how people claim they understand 

When you tell them about yourself 

But then do the same shit they said they wasn’t gonna do 

😂 Karma a bitch 

She got my ass good 

But I’m done with that 

Cus I was dragging 

But I’m stronger than before 

Wont catch me lacking 

God has revealed the snakes 

Showed me the fakes 

Im cool on em 

Can’t get mad bout shit I can’t control 

Why get outta character when I’m win in the end 

All my fails is why I’m still writing 

Not gonna lie shit been breaking 

But long I keep praying & working on sins 

The weight gonna be lifted off 

One day this will be a story 

One day this will pass 

I been trynna take off but all to the wrong paces

Got caught in my thoughts 

Starting falling be-hide 

Trying to stay alive mentally 

People think depression is something that go away but it don’t 

It’s comes & goes in different waves 

Each time it different 

The thoughts become unbearable 

It’s becomes a big nightmare 

Hard to get out of 

So no I’m not lazy I’m fighting a battle 

One I don’t speak on 

One I fear to mention 

People look at depression as a joke 

But I’m here to tell you it’s real 

Suicidal is real 

Trying to end it all had happen but was fail task 

Fighting battles you don’t understand 

When people ask what’s wrong you can’t put it in words because you don’t know 

How can you tell somebody anything if you don’t know 

Y’all call it excuses 

Y’all laugh at me 

Y’all talk bout me 

Some how I’m still doing great in my book 

Everyday a fight 

Every hour every night 

Blocking out the world is easy with depression 

People don’t just stop texting 

Nobody to busy to talk 

Depression is real nobody talks bout it 

Not even me 

I always blame it on my father death 

Because that’s what everybody say anyway 

Im this because of that 

But lil do everybody know I always suffer from depression 

That’s why I self sabotage 

I self hate 

I self harm 

I self shame 

Im working on it 

I have my good days where I’m positive 

Then it’s my so okay depression days negative thoughts 

Always feeling anxious 

Always feeling like somebody attacking me 

When somebody give there opinion it be feeling like a threat 

Sometimes over analyze things 

But in the end these are my thoughts