This is my War

This is my war I fight my battles every day Every inch I lose, is a second I waste It feels as if it will never end, and yet I dream of peace I fight my battles with love and respect, hate and deceit, fear and anger, passion and strategy Its a haunting monster: war Defeat is destruction, survival is loss, war is won only in peace To destroy the monster, you only corrupt your self There is no key to the endless cycle of attack And yet, if you don't, you lose To lose, is to be lost, to be blind and suffering in the dark And that is not my life to live I will never lose the war, because I will never stop fighting I will forever be lost in survival, if I fight on To win, to leave, to end the endless cycle; more destruction is needed Unless, unless we find another way A way to fight, but not A way to destroy, but not A way to not merely survive, but prevail, but yet never win The answer is unattainable bliss through destruction of your foe And your foe is only yourself If you destroy yourself, who are you now?