This is my war

1.2.3 blood is dripping down my arms and legs

1 word, 2 words, 3 words they are slowly cutting deep into my skin

1 punch, 2 kicks, 3 hits blood is now running down my face

1 scar later, 2 scars later, 3 scars now all of this self mutilation

This is my internal war I fight this battle alone

Mom says “Your fine.”

Dad says “Maybe your just tired.”

I say NO! I am fighting this internal battle of mine

yes I am sleepy but Insomnia keeps me awake at night

Insomnia is the cause of me falling asleep in class

1 handful of pills, 2 handfuls of pills, 3 handfuls of pills

1 nasty thought later, 2 nasty thoughts later, 3 nasty last thoughts forever ending

1 hour, 2 hours, 3 hours….

1 day, 2 days, 3 days…

1 week, 2 weeks, 3 weeks…

I wake up laying on a bed of white people surrounding me

I ask where I am and they say the ER

They say I may not make it the night but I’m stable for now…

1 month later, 2 months later, 3 months later I am now discharged from ER

1.2.3...4.5.6...7.8.9….10.11.12

1 year has gone by I have gotten help and have had less harassment at school  

But after getting some help this battle I am facing is slowly getting better

1 appointment , 2 appointments , 3 appointments I am in good health

I am getting better and better as time goes on my battle is slowly coming to an end.