A Name Change

Seventeen years old now,

Its the time of cars, prom, and dates.

And your voice should be a stern sound

Of, "Don't stay out to late"'s.

Every girl needs a fathers love,

But not every girl wants it as bad as me.

There is a hole in my heart 

That not even the doctors can see.

Every six months my phone will ring, 

You ask me how I'm doing, 

But you aren't really listening. 

My silent screams couldn't be any louder.

Can't you hear me? I'm your daughter.

But even that doesn't stop the abuse.

Fear.

Fear is what you've given me.

Fear to laugh, to love, and to be who I'm supposed to be.

You're supposed to be my superhero,

The one that I can count on.

But the times you've protected me is zero,

And the only thing I can count is when you've left me alone.

Clean—you really seem to care.

High— its just too much to bare.

Daddy?

Can I even call you that?

Father?

It still doesn't feel right?

We share the same DNA,

That I cannot change.

But we share the same last name,

And as of today that I do not claim.