Narcissistic judgements

The words you choose so solicitously roll off your tongue as though you are yielding a sword you have apprenticed your entire life, meant only for one purpose. What was once music to my ear, oh how I yearned to here the whisper you laid on me, now I only fear for its blood that you seek.  Only my demise will satisfy your appetite and I understand none of this!! This, this bloodshed. Feelings gone like water passing under your blood soaked bridge. Like droplets of us plummeting to the raging water below, we crash against the walls we have built. Walls not of shelter yet of amor  proud are we of the defenses we seek solise in. Sitting smugly as we revel in our mastery to inflict pain on the one we betrothed ourselves too. Swarn before god!  To love honor and cherish, yeilding to each other, not of greed or gain but of a most basic human emotion most are unfortunate to never taste!! we take advantage of it, disrespecting  and abusing the precious gift! Rocks we cast as it bleeds, pouring down the walls into the raging water washing away the memories and the time we shared. Sword drawn you lash out striking again and again with only one intent, infliction of pain! Seemingly you paddle the water causing the rapids to quicken! Willing it to tear us apart faster. Scoffingly you strut away, laughing at the expense of the the one struggling to hold hisself together, grasping to conceal his weaknesses, his faults, praying they won't be exposed for the amusement of exploitation.