Naturally Jade

Wed, 03/04/2015 - 16:35 -- Jadeama

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Naturally Jade 

I never fit it. 
Whether it was because of my environment or something inside of me I'm still figuring it out. 
For the longest time I didn't like myself. 
Why couldn't I have long blonde silky hair?
Why couldn't I have green eyes? Or blue? 
Something prettier than this dull brown. 
Something to be noticed. 
Why was I filling out when all of my friends kept their childish bodies? 
I was embarrassed. 
I was mortified. 
Why couldn't I just FIT IN?
I just wanted one person to understand me. 
I wanted to be beautiful ..and not just to my mother. 
I wanted boys to think I was pretty and girls to be jealous of me. 
Then one day I looked in the mirror and something changed. 
I didn't need to fit in anywhere. 
Why did I need to limit myself ? 
I loved my big hair, my brown eyes and my thick thighs were beautiful and I didn't need to lose any weight. I didn't need to try and act white or black.
 I could just be me. 
I just wanted to be Jade. 
Naturally Jade..because Jade is beautiful…
This poem is about: 
Me

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