Naturally Jade

I never fit it. 

Whether it was because of my environment or something inside of me I'm still figuring it out. 

For the longest time I didn't like myself. 

Why couldn't I have long blonde silky hair?

Why couldn't I have green eyes? Or blue? 

Something prettier than this dull brown. 

Something to be noticed. 

Why was I filling out when all of my friends kept their childish bodies? 

I was embarrassed. 

I was mortified. 

Why couldn't I just FIT IN?

I just wanted one person to understand me. 

I wanted to be beautiful ..and not just to my mother. 

I wanted boys to think I was pretty and girls to be jealous of me. 

Then one day I looked in the mirror and something changed. 

I didn't need to fit in anywhere. 

Why did I need to limit myself ? 

I loved my big hair, my brown eyes and my thick thighs were beautiful and I didn't need to lose any weight. I didn't need to try and act white or black.

 I could just be me. 

I just wanted to be Jade. 

Naturally Jade..because Jade is beautiful…