I never fit it.
Whether it was because of my environment or something inside of me I'm still figuring it out.
For the longest time I didn't like myself.
Why couldn't I have long blonde silky hair?
Why couldn't I have green eyes? Or blue?
Something prettier than this dull brown.
Something to be noticed.
Why was I filling out when all of my friends kept their childish bodies?
I was embarrassed.
I was mortified.
Why couldn't I just FIT IN?
I just wanted one person to understand me.
I wanted to be beautiful ..and not just to my mother.
I wanted boys to think I was pretty and girls to be jealous of me.
Then one day I looked in the mirror and something changed.
I didn't need to fit in anywhere.
Why did I need to limit myself ?
I loved my big hair, my brown eyes and my thick thighs were beautiful and I didn't need to lose any weight. I didn't need to try and act white or black.
I could just be me.
I just wanted to be Jade.
Naturally Jade..because Jade is beautiful…
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