Negative Feelings
Location
Listless
Scared
Anxious
Depressed
Feelings that are commonplace in my life
Staring in the mirror
A disgusting creature stares back
One that I’m ashamed of
That I hate
But I can’t rip my eyes away
It’s a hypnotizing sight
Regardless of the negative feelings
It bestows upon me
The smile that plays on my face
Couldn’t be more fake
The happiness in my eyes
Couldn’t be more false
I’m trapped in a void
A deep black ocean
Drowning
No hopes of reaching the surface
I run from those feelings though
I hide
Scream at them to go away
Force the pills down my throat
Pray for the numbness
To overcome me in all of its sweet relief
I beg for my own version of a filter
Because the real me
Is one I never want see nor be