Never shall I

When most people hear the word mother, 

they get a warm feeling like no other.

That's just not the case for me,

when I hear that word all I feel insideis my heart bleed.

Being younger she was my star. I admired

and loved her as much as a man love his car.

Every hug and kiss was a blessing,

Little did I know it would be something I would be missing.

Then the day came where I didnt see her the same,

with all her lies and mistakes who was I to blame.

Up and out she dissapeard from my life,

Not expecting this to stab me like a knife.

Days were darker and and my life felt less complete,

Its like god got a button and pressed delete.

Grwoing up without you rmother sucks,

I know many other kids who have my luck.

Each was something knew;

a warrant, rehab, even a. new boo.

I hated her for not caring, like we wrent hers. 

With all same problems she never learns.

Seventeen years and countingIhvent seen my mother,

sad to say I belive she does'nt even wanna see her own daughter.

Graduation is almost near and there is one thing I dont wanna hear.

" your mom wont be able to make it " my father familiar tone,

not knowing how I would take the hit.

So God bless everyone whoses birth motheris near, Because mine

would ditch her children for another beer.