Never Told You No

I got too attached too quickly. I told myself that I wasn't going to like anyone. I never told myself no, and to hold myself accountable. I never told you no because I liked you a lot. Tried to bypass my feelings for you - but you just walked right through the wall I built. Never told you no, even when I should've. Even the nights I cried myself to sleep, even in the moments where I was upset with you. 7 months passed, and I never told you no - should've told you no if I would've known you were going to be talking to another girl. I let my guard down around you because you were a safe person I could open up about my feelings, someone I could trust deeply. Should've told you no and told me the truth when I asked if you had a girlfriend, yet I knew the truth, and you lied to me. Should've told you no at the start. Situations like these are the reason I build my wall so high, the reason why I'm scared of a relationship that could turn serious. I open up, trust people again, and then get my heart broken again and again. I cared deeply about you, and it broke me to see you walk away. I cried for days. I'm trying to work through my emotions, but this is too messy. - It hurts, but I'm trying my best to move on. Though I never told you no, I'm still gonna love, care, and pray for you because you still matter to me.