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what a crazy turn of events...

firstly, not seeing you for nearly five months,

and then seeing you.

my goodness, i missed your smile, 

and bright blue eyes.

secondly, i moved

way out of the city, where i know no one,

and no one knows me.

a small town, is what it is. 

i cannot tell you how many times that i've sat alone

at lunch, in class, no one talks to me,

and i talk to no one. 

i could make friends if i tried,

but right now, im kind of done trying.

im done missing my home, im just done.

its obvious i dont belong here, because,

everyone here has history with each other,

and in three years time i'll be heading off to university, same as everyone else.

i finally had  home, a place where i felt comfortable to be myself,

i had my incredible friends, the kind i considered family, and i had you.

you were mine, and i was yours.

now i feel lost, i feel scared

of whats going to happen, and i'll admit,

i'm jealous that i'm not there with you, 

but other girls are... they just don't know you the way i do,

and because of that,

i dont trust them.

and ultimatley, we're not even together anymore,

but i dont want to see you get hurt,

because i can't be there to prevent that.

i love you, and i cant help it.

that day near the park, i should've hugged you,

i should've hugged you.

But,

i didn't.

i miss you

so much.