A New Beginning From a Bad Ending

I don't really understand why bad things happen to the innocent.

May it be fate, a God has in mind, destiny.

I don't know.

You grow up in a world that is a mixture of beauty and love, as well as evil and hatred.

You learn to gaurd our heart, from people who's intentions are to only bring joy for a while and then leave.

A year has past of protecting my heart, making sure no one talk hold of it, breaking it.

Leaving me with nothing, but to trust in God to mend it again.

A eyar of beautiful beginnings, but lingering from past pains.

I swore to myself to never fall again, to for now on forever fight back.

A year of fighting back tears, negative thoughts, and self harm.

Thinking I wasn't good enough and never will be.

A year has past, and I found a new love.

Oh, how hard it is to transition from being so cold inside to a loving partner.

Only love and support has been given to me by this amazing brave man.

Who had committed to treat my heart the way it deserved to be.

I don't know how he can take such a remarkable task as that.

But, he did.

I have never been treated with such care, respect, and love.

May he be soul mate?

I don't know.

He may be someone God felt I deserved, but I'll leave to Him to decide who my soul mate is.

Deep down, I am still cold.

But, when I'm with him, it's as if I'm living in a fantasy land.

Fantasy lands can be dagerous, or so I've learned.

But this is different.

Can this all be a mistake?

I don't know, I'll leave it all to fate.