Next to "Nothing"

Ecclesiastes 1:9 New English Translation (NET Bible)

⁹ What exists now is what will be,
and what has been done is what will be done;
there is nothing truly new on earth.

Nothing

“There’s nothing new under the sun” is that true in my disposition?

Do I live the way I should as through scriptures, I’ve been told?

Or do I make up my own heart ... to ignore my shown condition

for the way, things appear to me ... seem to leave me in the cold?

It is so easy to say one thing and then just do the other.

It is even easier to speak out of both sides of the mouth.

Sometimes it appears that truth should not even bother

to convince me otherwise ... that North is not the South.

Still, I believe, but in what ... in who do I seek the knowing?

Is it in me that I believe ... and so the Truth foregoing?

Who am I that I believe ... am I my own substance?

What makes me think at all ... is it me or I for instance?

My name is Jan or is it now ... my name could be another?

And then it is just a name ... that was given at my birth.

Did I become what I was named ... without thinking farther?

Or did I grow outside my name ... to be what I “think” first?

Do I need to know the ”me” or the “I” that I tend too?

Or should I only search ... for Him who brought me here?

I am more than a thought I know ... that came from nowhere here too.

Am I not more than nothingness ... in this atmosphere?