Next Time

There was a time when life was hopeless

When I’d look out car windows and tell myself sweet lies

When I’d say I was happy but really had just forgotten how to cry

When I’d yell with all my anger but really just want to die

There was a time when life was hopeless

There was a time when life had no meaning

When someone would call my name but I’d assume it couldn't be me

No one would have a reason to say my name

When if I had any emotions I would “forget” what they would be

When I saw no reason for friends or feeling any sort of free

There was a time when life had no meaning

There was a time when life was the obstacle

When all I wanted was to be alone

When I had no truth no mortals no place to go

When the numb was a bitter as freezing snow

There was a time when life was the obstacle

There was a time when life was quiet

When the thoughts in my head were louder than years of words

When a brook and a hill could make your soul burn

When people couldn’t see how much I was hurt

When anger and rage were all I was worth

There was a time when life was quiet

There was a time when life was numb

When even blades and blood brought no true feeling

When pond of food would do me no healing

When I cry myself dry and forget al life’s meaning

When living was death and a grave more appealing

There was a time when life was numb

There was a time when life had stopped

When every inch of skin was paper to rip

When the songs of loved ones didn’t help a bit

When people walked by and thought nothing of this

There was a time when life had stopped

There was time when life was slow

When I’d  cry and want nothing more than home

When chicken coops were all I thought I’d know

When dirt and trees would replace the hell below

When genuine tears, for the first time, would flow

The was a time when life was slow

There was a time when I found strength

When I knew I could so it no matter the length

When I kept on pushing despite the pain

When some days I’d still want to flee with the rain

When a simple flower could make my day

There was a time when i found strength

There was a time when I was hope

When I was a steep tall tree who knew life’s path

When no monster of human could stab my back

When all the outcomes excluded life’s wrath

When the present would always overcome the past

There was a time when I was hope

There will be a time when I feel it all again

When all the hell will rush to the surface

When I’ll conquer the world and not want to be perfect

When the tears will keep coming but it will be worth it

When I’ll remember who I am and no longer feel nervous

There will be a time when I feel it all again

But next time,

I’ll be alright