The Night I Walked Away

Those steps I walk away from you, Hurts my heart Because I hate being away from you. Emotional wreck, is how I feel, Tears come out Because I can't deal. Weakness, Emotions & Vulnerability, Stuff I can't help but feel, But that's the stuff that I'm not ready for you to see. My tears run in a race with gravity to slide off my cheeks, Wet stains on my shirt shows that I've reached the peak. The peak of my bottom, where lies my wall, Crumbling down, where it once stood tall. The strength I thought I had, has seemed to become weaker because of you. And my emotions that I once had under control,...seems like you got that, too! Some of the crazy thoughts that I have, They just don't seem like me. But I can't blame anybody but myself, Because I'm not ready to NOT be free!! To balance my love along with that state of mind, That's something I don't know how to do. Never had to do it before, So I guess you can say that it's new! It's hard to want & yearn for something that is within reach, But you just can't have... Being faced with it from day to day, So it makes me extremely sad. Trying to escape the whole thought of it is difficult within itself. Tried playing mind games, but realized that it's something that I can't help. I continue to knock on Patience's door, But sometimes I think she ignores me. So my shirt continues to catch my tears, And I'm constantly faced with Worry. He beats on my back until my shoulders get numb... And my back starts to hunch & all I can do is run. Run from these thoughts that seem to never end. But it's like a cycle, They always come back again!