Nightmare, From HELL

How can it be

            That you’re related me

When I needed you most

            You weren’t there for me

I understand you were “doing you”

            But I needed you DESPERATELY

You left me alone

            And a nightmare for HELL is what happened to me

All alone in a dark room

            No one came for me

Darkness is not what I fear

            It’s what happens in the dark that frightens me

I search around the room each night

CONTINUOSLY

Praying to God

            Hoping he won’t come back for me

Going on 14 years…

 And it still haunts me

Can’t tell anyone

Afraid they might judge me

I cry just about every night

            Hoping no one would hear me

I cant help how I feel

            It scares me to death

                        One day it might kill me

Go ahead take what you want

            Just don’t take what’s so dear to me

I hate when the sun goes down

It’s just another reminder

Something that brings fear to me

You’ll understand soon just wait patiently

You think I’m disrespecting you

            But it’s you that has no clue

You live in this perfect world

            And you’ll never have a clue

                        About what I suffer through

I use to blame God

            But I know he’ll pull me through

I know he’ll protect me       

            But from what

                        That’s the issue…

This is my NIGHTMARE, FROM HELL

            Something that I’m still going through