Nightmares

Nightmares plague my mind.

Waking up at 4 am,

My back feels like somebody is burning it

I’m paranoid that somebody is in my room,

Lights turn on and suddenly,

The place that I’m in is completely different.

Nightmares about the ocean plague my mind.

I’m terrified to go in the ocean,

I’ll be nervous about just putting my feet in.

Every night I’m drowning,

Deep in the water where nobody can save me.

“Help me!” I can scream,

I can beg and plead for somebody to save me,

But my saving grace never comes,

It’s not written in the story,

The story of my nightmares.

Nightmares make my body feel like it’s on fire,

Sizzling in the fire,

My hands are clamming up,

I can’t breathe.

My chest feels like its caving in around my lungs,

Compressing my ability to breathe,

The silence is overwhelming.

Music is my only source of comfort,

But it can only do so much,

Before,

It just doesn’t,

Work…

“Achilles… Achilles… Achilles come down,

Won’t you get up off,

Get up off the roof.”

The lyrics pace through my thoughts,

Leaving me distracted,

Calm?

I don’t know anymore! 

My mind is going crazy,

I’m wondering if it’s the music that is calming me down,

Or the light.

My mind begs for me to call someone,

But it’s so early in the morning,

And I have to study for a test

Maybe tomorrow they will finally leave me too.