No control No matter

I was given a hand

And a new card deck

It is a chance

And i can only check

A time to read

And finally understand

One card at a time

Then the others i can band

Please help me learn

And become my own

The person i want

My life i have sown

Together I am

My soul mind and heart

New things ive learned

Are added to my cart

Im shopping for me

My very own things

I have no control

(no matter)

I have new learnings