No matter how far I

No matter how far I go You seem so far away The way you grab your hair Makes me feel like im not here You gasp for air Like I suffocate you for being here But thats all I want from you To be here with me Along this ride I NEED you to be with me To say im sorry for the pain I have caused You no longer seem to care Like you used to You no longer seem to be there Like you used to You seem so far away You are so far away From what I want us to be From were I want us to be You no longer crave the same You have walked away Away fron the best thing that can make you okay I am not okay I used to long for you like no other Now I fight to have you near What has come between us For you to see You are no longer here We were in love once Now thats just a memory Soon to be erased By all your unfaithful tears You said you were sorry But still i fear You are not so near to me like you speak to be You have walked away from the fight we try to win We are no longer we But me and you fighting to live Not together but next to eachothers fears Thats all we see Each others fears We do not love we do not see We are living alone with a partner we cannot reach We are no longer in love But strangers Waking up to see the next day You see me as someone in pain I SEE you as someone in vain Living together just to survive the last that we can have I hope one day I find the love That i once had The love you erased Can it really be over?? Can I no longer touch you without feeling alone?? You seem to miss the point You had me completely But you wanted more More than I could give you Just for fun Just to lust You wanted more than what we ever were You searched for lust That was always there But you searched away from me You searched for it elsewhere Like if I was never there I cried for you to see me But you rather have had someone else Because at the end of the day Thats all you wanted You wanted someone else I hope one day you see I gave you all you needed I gave you all you wanted to be I loved you But you wanted more of me That was impossible to give You lost me long ago You lost all we could be Just to have a fling That you never wanted to keep I was all you wanted And more You just never saw How much I gave you To survive I gave you all of me to survive But you felt I was exchangable Just for time being Just while you where away Fuck you and all your being You never loved me like you pleaded to You never loved me You never loved me I will never love me.. Dear Goddess im sorry.. I havent seen the light You tried to give me Because of him I HAVE lost my way My way to you Dear Goddess Im sorry I let myself down by believing He was more than he could be Dear Goddess I Am Sorry