No, No Didn't Mean Yes

You were my first I love you

You were my first “maybe it will last" 

You were my first “maybe one day I’ll say I do." 

You were my first to make me day dream about thing I swore I never wanted to

You were the first that made me believe maybe kisses weren't just a way to end a fight 

You were the first to make me believe that love could exist late into the night. 

You were my first kiss 

You were the butterflies that couldn't be contained in my stomach so they covered my whole room 

You were my first good but then you took it away and you put me in pain

You wanted what I didn't and everything was good till you knew

You knew my answer so you never let me say 

You made a decision 

You decided I was could never be a little girl again that day 

You yelled at me and I can still hear you voice

You never said no 

I feel your hands on body taking all I had from me 

I’ll never have back what you took from me 

No, no didn't mean you take all you wanted from me