Non-Belonging

" As the light fades away i see my inner demons rising, taking over the black sea like the damn horizon, my vision and everything is slowly unwidening, the path i choose is more cleary then this bottle, as i fucking walk away and numb all this pain away, just to see another day, i rather blow the candle and watch the spark die away, then take my last breath while drowning in self hatred, why i am like this, did god intend for me to be a waste of human life or just a waste of space, someone take this damn pain away, tell me its gon be okay so i can wake up and feel i belong to the human race."