Not enough love

Loving you was everything I thought it would be

And so much more than I could have imagined

Loving you was canceling plans to spend time with you

Loving you was spicy and hot and authentic cuisine never tasted so good

Loving you was like fireworks from far away and full moons

You see I always knew where it was heading I just couldn’t stop the train

But I can’t like myself and love you too

I didn’t have enough love for that

You took it all with your greedy heart

Your heart that beats only for this body and never for my song

Never for the heart that plays it

Loving you was going to the bar 3 times the week I said I was done drinking 

Loving you was driving home with tears hitting the steering wheel

Kisses I knew you didn’t mean

Warmth that somehow felt cold

And eyes both full of lust and anger

Yes somehow I became the addict

Consumed with loving you

Needing to see you or talk to you or speak your name at least twice a day

As if the taste of your name on my lips was the only flavor left in this world

But what do you do when your everything isn’t enough? 

Not even to turn a cheek

Or open the door

Perhaps there’s not enough love

Left for anyone else